Sure, the people around me are growing up, getting married, maybe even having kids, and sure, i'm a little bit jealous most of the time. However, now that i've thought about it a little bit more, i'm realizing that I should probably learn to be ok with ME first. I need to learn to lean on myself more and not allow some guy, some date, some pointless make out to make me happy. I know. Now you're gettin' all my secrets.
So, here I am, initiating a men cleanse. In this time, heck, i'm going to date myself! I'm going to learn what I need to live life on my own, so that when that man on his white horse comes a knockin' we can be self-sufficient together :) I mean, i've been through some hell the past few years, not going to lie. Dating myself could be just what I need... and, if you ask me, it's a pretty good set up.
However, I'm not a kid anymore. With this men cleanse and self discovery, I think i'm also going to take some time to focus on my family, both the Canadians and the Utahans. There's going to be a day when i'll be starting a family of my own, and, as Trace Adkins might say... "you're gonna miss this.."
I'm taking advantage of time, while the time is mine.
Bring on the 10k, bring on the book, bring on the job, and bring the Lauren Loock.
Maybe i'll even blog more. Only time will tell.
Sincerely,
Lauren... and Lauren.
You will not regret this decision one bit!!!! :) I made it once upon a time because I was so sick of dating and the game and all of that, and it lasted like two months and then I met Joe. Actually, I kind of was forced into the decision for a couple of years a while before that because I never really dated anyone, but rather than enjoying it, I wallowed because everyone was getting married, I was having parties and everyone would leave with dates except me, etc. And then I had this crappy summer of dating and guys were just a joke, so I made the decision to do it again and enjoy it that time! I wish I would have learned that earlier because it's great to do things completely for your without worrying about the timeline of potential relationships and how they would affect that.
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