To The City Full of Life...

....Thank you!

A few quick days in New York was just what the doctor ordered. As dreamy as the city is, I found it rather funny how... not dreamy it was being there. Allow me to explain: Waking up in New York City the past couple days was the most real i'd felt in many months. The unreal thing was how fast it went,  how soon I was back in the Salt Lake Valley, and how when I looked out my window the next day I didn't see a mess of taxi's racing down the road.

I've always loved New York City; It is a city full of LIFE! OH, the life there. To be honest, I can't think about it too much because of how overwhelming it is to process.

Aw, the question will always remain as to whether i'm a country girl who loves bright lights, or a city girl who loves horses... when really, we all know I was raised in the suburbs and more than likely have no idea what i'm talking about.

No matter what I categorize myself to be, I will always feel the power of the city. This trip to New York, the city full of life, was just what I needed to put the life back into me.

Breaking from the routine of a tourist, I spent a few days acting as a local; walking around the park, mostly staying out of the hoards at Times Square, and relaxing in a quaint NYC apartment watching a gentle snow fall outside. (I always did want to go to the city in the winter... maybe next time i'll allow it to warm up a bit first;) My dear Jacob and his partner Rob were amazing hosts, and took the utmost care of me WHILE still allowing me to be my own person and explore the city on my own.

Pro-tip.... go to the top of the World Trade Center. You know, the new one. You know, the TALLEST building in the western hemisphere. Do it, love it, and breathe in the world from the view only a bird knows well.

Thanks to my city for cradling my struggling mind, body, and spirit, and returning me home with a little of that New York spit I will forever crave. Salt Lake could use a little NYC zest, and I suppose I could be the girl to bring it. :)

A vacation from one's own mind. I did it. I loved it. I recommend it.

Until next time, keep those lights bright and those never-ending dreams alive! I miss you already.

The Deal

Alright, blog. Here's the deal.

The deal is that i'm stressed. The deal is that i'm depressed. The deal is that i've written notes about probably 15 blog topics, but have not had the energy to sit down and write the stories that are in my head.

The deal is that i'm lonely. That I miss my Soldier. I'm trying to do the best I can each and every day, but the absolute deal is that sometimes I the day wins, the lonesome feeling defeats me, and the strength I thought I had dwindles.

Hoping I can shake off this January funk and write the stories in my head, because let me tell ya... some of them are GOLDEN!

I'm writing this for me, almost as if i'm validating why i haven't written anything else. But I know you're all on the edge of your seats wanting to hear about downtown living, my solo trip to New York, or how the things i've learned being a military girlfriend. So the deal is this.... keep me in your prayers, and I will find the energy that I know is inside me... that zest for life you all know and love... and I will write my heart out. I promise.

Life isn't all glory stories, and happy endings. Life is a whole lot of learning to become an adult in the land of misfit toys.

Until next time,
Lauren