We Didn't Get The Horse

We Didn't Get The Horse

I always wanted a horse.
Ever since I was a little girl, I would imagine owning a horse.
I would collect horse figurines, and stuffed animals.
I picked out names for the horses I would someday have.
Mayberry, Buck, and Capizio were my favorites.


When I turned 16, I almost got a horse.
My parents and I looked at a beautiful Paint Pony named Geronimo.
We actually discussed me getting a horse!
The plan was to rent a piece of land, and keep the horse on it.
I would have to wake up, before school, to feed him.
Exercise him.
Feed him again.


Then we remembered I was a 16 year old girl.
I'd never owned a horse.
School wasn't really my top priortiy to begin with.
I was a new driver.

We didn't get the horse.

Sometimes I day dream that we did get him.
I imagine how my life would have changed.
Would it have been drastically altered?
I would have woken up early, and learned about dedication.
I would have had to had a good job to pay for feed.
I would have bonded with the horse.
I would have gotten really good at riding...
maybe even entering a rodeo!
I would have met a young cowboy at said rodeo
and we would have fallen in love riding into the sunset.
I would have graduated high school
Gotten married to the cowboy at 18
Moved to a home in the country
Where I would now have 2 kids and stables full of horses!
Maybe we would start a business
Teaching children to ride..
Or using our horses as therapy!
I would have written a book about a suburb girl gone country,
Gotten awesome reviews,
big sales, 

the money would be flowing it,
our family would be growing,
our land would be growing,
our horses would be many,

and that would be my life!!

But

We didn't get the horse.

My life doesn't have a big farm house,
A sexy cowboy,
or a little paint pony.

My life took a different direction completely.

And my life is good.

Things happen for a reason,
and it's crazy how one particular event happening, or not,
could be the deciding factor of a whole series of events.

We didn't get the horse.

Had we, things probably would have been ok,
but they wouldn't be the things I know and love today.

I wonder what choice I'll make next to alter the domino game that is life.